(I am posting this because I wrote it...kinda'...and refuse to waste time, but...lol)
Bonjour,
Ca va!? I am. Although, in keeping with this whole TRIP, it has not come easy, but fast!!!
One of the things I determined upon arriving on this soil is that I would avoid crazy at all costs! The unfortunate part about that decree is EVERYONE here is here because of their crazy. From the old woman ambling down the boulevard with the lil' dog...caca everywhere...to the unaffected musician/poser sculking around Pigalle to the Twinky Philipino Boys dressing the corners of Le Marais aching for that Sucre-Per...to the 16eme Doyenne hoping to live out the last of her days safe and HIGH...to the Out-of-Work Fashion Diva struggling to find worth in her soul after LIVING through the City of Lights!!! It is these sorts of people...folk that have informed and quite honestly confounded my interpersonal dealings in Paris. They're...we are all Crazy!
I remember a period in my NYC Life where all of my true/trusted friends opted out of being around me...citing changing times/attitudes/me as the reason. I took it hard, listening to their words, but unable/willing to really hear what they were telling me. You see, NYC is a city full of DRAMA and TALL TALES, just as Paris. Apparently, the weight of my TAIL had grown too great for those I know and love. I did not get IT at the time. As I observed my loved ones negotiate around me...I also took the time to really question what all of this was about. Per my Brother Chad - he felt PUT-upon...that my presence was somehow too much for him to handle as he negotiated NYC and his TALE! It is for reasons just like this that NYC is a city full of KNIGHTS engaging every step of the asphalt jungle in FULL ARMOUR!!!
It is a new day...in a new city...with NEW GROWN folks and now I am being put to the test. Focus demands Discretion. As I am now at a period of truly owning and honing myself/life/art I realize that I cannot allow just every beautiful face/spirit in my space. I am open...receiving/processing all that Life is presenting me. However, as my Brother Carlton advised, I must guard my blessings...my light. Not everyone is ready...even if they say they are. Also, I might not be ready for what they bring to me (making me feel put upon)..and thus distracted!
As beautiful as everything here appears, I have come to realize the facades are fine tuned! I do not believe they are all bad people, quite the opposite. I am encountering lovely people who find folly in this game of deciphering and determining their environments.
Lucky for me I am NOT THAT INTERESTED!
LOVE is soooooooooo powerful. Focus is soooooooooooooo Beautiful. My story is the only one I am interested in truly entertaining these days, preferring to employ discretion when anything outside of that pops up!
In the end EVERYONE has a Tale big or small, but life only affords the opportunity to outfit ONE... your's! Do not ever let the weight of someone elses presence so cloud your judgement...steal your light...confound the steps along your path...we know that. However, steering clear of CRAZY may prove a bit more difficult.
This IS life...and people have their baggage...just do not try to place it on my cart to carry! I can help, but I have got enough on my TAIL already!!!
peace
