Sunday, March 18, 2012

Let It Thicken Your SKIN, not Harden Your SOUL.

Here I am...dragged into THE RACE...simply to survive, NOT LIVE!

I have never wanted to visit New York.  I was always determined to LIVE here on my own terms.  However, I now find it incongruous with who I am...if only financially.  The thing I find most troubling, however, is the notion of being FETISHIZED.  I have stepped back into a wonderland of...misconceptions.

My father has constantly ridden me about seemingly living-out the fantasies of others at the expense of my own self.  The way some of these folks have been performing/acting...I would say that he wasn't the only one who believed that.  What they failed to realize was...THAT is how I LEARNED.  It is the only way that I could.  Not fleshing-out others desires, but gaining the personal footing through each experience to dare to actualize my own.

I worked for...found myself in the company of/lived with people...tried, in my own scattered way, to engage those who could demonstrate just HOW TO DO IT!!!

Apparently, it is time for PAYBACK [re. Show and Prove].  Here is the thing- these folks are my family...brothers & sisters.  I worked, loved, lived, learned, have grown with these folks.  However, while my motives may have been boldly printed on my sleeve...They must have gotten this confused...me wrong.

I feel like I have been clear, however [Hmmm...]
I no longer fit or I REALLY have to
Learn to FIT.
[Shea...Bonne Nuit]

Some folks are acting from LOVE
Growing from LOVE
While OtheRs are 
BurNt-Out,
Others Bugged Out, 
& Others Just BitTeR.

I do not find myself 
FLYING EASY 
anymore.
It is a Chore that I do not H...
No Longer 
Have the Energy [for]...
...to Piece these Pieces 
Back Together.

Keep On

Friday, March 09, 2012

I am sitting my new space...back in Harlem...working IN the ARTS...moving forward...having just...Hmmm...WOW...MERCI BEAUCOUP.

[GHosT DoG]

I am.

Wow.

Flairs, Huh?!