Sunday, September 30, 2012

SMARTER STRONGER FASTER...VRAIMENT!!!

GOOD MORNING


...or so I always say.

I am about to make way out onto the Brooklyn Boulevard, in search of some inexpensive grub.  I am going to come home...being Lem's.  I am in Brooklyn...on yet another cobble along my path.  I am occupying his space while his is out of town...directing.  WORK...so, here I have been...in BedStuy again.  Completing this circle so soon...why, YES.

Apparently, so.  I am cannot say that this hasn't been an equal swirl...in.  I came after living on another friend's floor...in her living room for a couple of weeks.  Ahh...the Caldwell name...Merci Beaucoup.  That said, it was...dorm-like...at best and yet another notch on my belt at worst.  I am certain that somewhere...at sometime when this story of mine is happened upon and appreciated...this gypsy period will certainly mark a joyous, whimsical transition.

Now...here I sit...munchies encroaching at a rapid pace, in Brooklyn...BedStuy...DO or DIE...pondering my next move.  It seems to make perfect sense.  I want to save money leave. By staying with Curtis I am able to do that.  I can help him out financially and help myself, as well.  Plus, I can get Jalope'!!!


So...there it is...THE Decision.  Now, the move.  I cannot take ANYMORE CRAZY...there I said it.  And I attract a motely crue ...if Albert was any evidence.  However, that departure manifested, I am far too appreciative of both he and Nicholas to speak ill of them...going forward, I believe I am strong enough to know I am going to need a...PLAN.  I am moving into another person's space.  I am attempting to start life anew...at this point.  I should jump at this opportunity...and be free with my thought and self.  Why am I NOT!?  What happened to me?  I Got Sick!  It grounded me in ways that have shaken me to my core and I have no idea how to rectify THAT.  While it is not killing me...it is driving me INSANE...lol.  I need a space where finding and flexing my voice will be appreciated.  

Thinkin' out loud y'all...

GUIDE MY FEET...along THIS PATH
...PLEASE.

I want to be free to again...feel the excitement of moving forward, as opposed to the apprehension.  I do NOT like THIS.  LoL  I know it has EVERYTHING to do with me NOT singing.  That is what I wanted...and allowed to define me through to Paris.  Now, I am shifting from Burrough to Burrough in the vain pursuit of a space suitable to find THAT LOVE again...although I KNOW THAT IS NOT WHAT I CAME HERE FOR!!!
[BOOM]

I came to HEAL. My experiences...all of them have INFORMED this path.  When I consider this trip...I cannot not doubt myself one bit...or I shouldn't.  I love...LOVE my FAMILY and those that have stepped up to recognize [however trepiditiously... ;-)] evolution.  I needed it...to recognize IT in me.  I came to look my HEALTH...and progress in the eye - addressing all of my ISSUES, so that moving forward this WELLNESS CENTER makes perfect SENSE...for and from ME.

I have worked tirelessly in every facet of NYI used to inhabit, with a perspective informed by having tasted MY WANT, as well as my exasperation with foolishness.  When it is ART I am there.  When it is NOT...I giggle!  ;-)  I am too old for some of this ISH and still seem to find folly in others.

I need a home for the winter and now I have one...in the center of HARLEM.  Wow.

REST, 
WRITE, 
WORK, 
CONDITION, 
PREPARE, 
LIVE, 
FOCUS, 
LEARN, 
GROW
...PEACE


Ok, that said...

I am ...going forward...to Harlem and...

LIVE, LIVE, LIVE



Time to FEAST!!!

PEACE


Wednesday, September 12, 2012

ImpLORE

Brother, Brother, 
Brother o mine...

Why can't you see
 just how FINE...
...You ARE?


BeNU