WISDOM...TRUE: September 2012

GOOD MORNING

...or so I always say.

I am about to make way out onto the Brooklyn Boulevard, in search of some inexpensive grub. I am going to come home...being Lem's. I am in Brooklyn...on yet another cobble along my path. I am occupying his space while his is out of town...directing. WORK...so, here I have been...in BedStuy again. Completing this circle so soon...why, YES.

Apparently, so. I am cannot say that this hasn't been an equal swirl...in. I came after living on another friend's floor...in her living room for a couple of weeks. Ahh...the Caldwell name...Merci Beaucoup. That said, it was...dorm-like...at best and yet another notch on my belt at worst. I am certain that somewhere...at sometime when this story of mine is happened upon and appreciated...this gypsy period will certainly mark a joyous, whimsical transition.

Now...here I sit...munchies encroaching at a rapid pace, in Brooklyn...BedStuy...DO or DIE...pondering my next move. It seems to make perfect sense. I want to save money leave. By staying with Curtis I am able to do that. I can help him out financially and help myself, as well. Plus, I can get Jalope'!!!

So...there it is...THE Decision. Now, the move. I cannot take ANYMORE CRAZY...there I said it. And I attract a motely crue ...if Albert was any evidence. However, that departure manifested, I am far too appreciative of both he and Nicholas to speak ill of them...going forward, I believe I am strong enough to know I am going to need a...PLAN. I am moving into another person's space. I am attempting to start life anew...at this point. I should jump at this opportunity...and be free with my thought and self. Why am I NOT!? What happened to me? I Got Sick! It grounded me in ways that have shaken me to my core and I have no idea how to rectify THAT. While it is not killing me...it is driving me INSANE...lol. I need a space where finding and flexing my voice will be appreciated.

Thinkin' out loud y'all...

GUIDE MY FEET...along THIS PATH

...PLEASE.

I want to be free to again...feel the excitement of moving forward, as opposed to the apprehension. I do NOT like THIS. LoL I know it has EVERYTHING to do with me NOT singing. That is what I wanted...and allowed to define me through to Paris. Now, I am shifting from Burrough to Burrough in the vain pursuit of a space suitable to find THAT LOVE again...although I KNOW THAT IS NOT WHAT I CAME HERE FOR!!!

[BOOM]

I came to HEAL. My experiences...all of them have INFORMED this path. When I consider this trip...I cannot not doubt myself one bit...or I shouldn't. I love...LOVE my FAMILY and those that have stepped up to recognize [however trepiditiously... ;-)] evolution. I needed it...to recognize IT in me. I came to look my HEALTH...and progress in the eye - addressing all of my ISSUES, so that moving forward this WELLNESS CENTER makes perfect SENSE...for and from ME.

I have worked tirelessly in every facet of NYI used to inhabit, with a perspective informed by having tasted MY WANT, as well as my exasperation with foolishness. When it is ART I am there. When it is NOT...I giggle! ;-) I am too old for some of this ISH and still seem to find folly in others.