Still Getting The Hang of This

I do not know what I am doing...I must admit this.

For the first time in my life this is actually scaring the shit out of me.

HOWEVER, there is a part of my spirit that has learned to flip that fear and make it work for me...allow it to fuel the same passions that are giving me pause in the first place.  Throughout my 38 years I have found it necessary to ignore the reality of the situation, in favor of focusing on what I am working towards gaining from the experience.  That is truly the course of action that has allowed me to gain 38 years of experience.  You see, I found it necessary to hone my skills of perception in order to not miss what was going on around me, while not letting those thing that SHOULD, but DO NOT, stress me out.

I have found, since the first days of being in my Parisian flat RADIONOVA affords me the space and time to sit and reflect upon what it is I am going through.  MUSIC is truly my vice, in a way the pure physical interaction could never be.  The connection of vibration allows for truth, however difficult, to be unearthed.