Maybe I AM HEAVY...TOO HEAVY

It is amazing what a difference a day makes.  

I have often been told to follow my intuition.  

Never stay around ANYONE or ANYTHING threatens to SHUN my light...regardless of manifestation.  There is something there.  Regardless the mask there is an intent...and intimation....regarding just what their opinion of your place just might be.  I am certain that there would be a loving negotiation...of the off-the-cuff sentiments...that now litter the bleach-cherry of these hardwood floors.

It is a long hard road. 

 I guess living has forced folks NOT TO Trust me!  I have never stolen...dvd's...and porn maybe, but nothing substantial.  I have never abused anyone.  I have never knowingly put those I love in danger...opting instead to "do my dirt" in the shadows...regardless of the the retribution.

I want people to trust me.  Trust my knowledge my assertions my accomplishments...trust that when I say something...it is as I say...and be ok with that.  FOREVER, I have always felt THAT was not the case...regardless of the audience.  Whether it be West Orange...the Red Clay of GA or the Concrete By-Ways of Gotham the sentiment...the feeling is always the same - YOU SURE?!  I sensed that early on and because of that choose to GO SLOW AND MAKE MY LIFE HAPPEN.  That way, that which I gain along the way...I KNOW, because I have taken MY TIME to cultivate and excavate the knowledge.

That said, in a city like NYC.  With folks going at varying degrees of everything...it is best to be aware that at some point someone you thought got you...won't!  It will mani...or woman-i-fest in a myriad of ways.

Curious...how the ME,ME,ME is as ugly as it gets.

MOVE ON.  

NEVER STAY where One tries to snub-out your light.  

It is not right.  

They should trust that you know just how to control it.

It is odd how people tell you to ignore the assumptions, judgments and assessments of others...when, after a certain age - unless you have a mate - your entire social world is made of that.  Especially if you are the ONLY one of a kind in your Group.

 You need to change friends!

Curious...I have no fear of FIRE...HEAT.
I do not see it
destructively
...nor do I believe I would not be able to contain it.  It is something that stirs in my soul...therefore I know I can keep it controlled.  That is never the issue.

It is a Long Hard Road...

With Many a WINDING TURN...

THAT leads Us to Who knows where

...who knows when.